committment

i realize my job problems have to do with commitment: i can't make one. i'm always thinking there is something out there bigger and better if i just wait. how do i stop this?

Job Search

finding jobs that don't want to make you want to become a job-head-hunting terrorist make me want to live a life of simplicity on a remote island in fiji with the rest of my homies.

my roommate says i should write down all the stuff i've done so far so here it is:

1. dell - didn't want to work on the weekends and late at night. i care more about beings social than being a successful seller of consumer computers.

2. suntrust selling credit cards to trucking companys - nuff said.

3. i went to a job fair and was 'perfect' for several telemarketer jobs

4. countless spam emails where i could make 100,000 a year working 2 hours a day

5. sony music - redesigning their website, cool, but i never heard from them

6. dell education - selling computers to schools which i have done for the past 3 years - heard nothing

7. vandy - working in international office - did this for 3 years, took in resume to office, didn't get an interview

8. nashville city and private schools - bachelor and masters in education and have presented at international conferences - hand delivered my resume to the schools - didn't get one interview

9. theres like 10 more that i just sent a resume to and never heard from.

I say all of this b/c I know there's got to be something cool out there for me. I just can't figure it out. Good thing God's in control. I'm going nuts.

Sweet Southern Comfort

I'm finally back in the US now for good (at least thats what my mom thinks). Over the next couple of entries, I'm going to be outlining the differences I see in my life now compared to what my life was just 6 months ago when I was living in Vienna.

So if anyone actually reads this thing, they'll probably have something to read once a week.

Helping those less fortunate

Rick Warren makes some good points about assisting those in need in his article: http://www.purposedrivenlife.com/absolutenm3/templates/articles.aspx?articleid=2173

Equation

One of my many jobs at Vienna Christian School is a mentor to a young, emerging intellectual, Thomas Gardner. Today, after his wife birthed him his second offspring, he sent me the quote of the day, "As the number of fees in a given area decreases, there is an equivalent drop in the amount of drama within that area."

You see, my work here is DONE.

A time to clean?

Solomon claimed that there was a time for everything. However, I think this really smart dude was wrong. I don't know if there is ever a good time to clean. My mother would disagree with me. Recently, she got frustrated with me after I told her that it had been 6 months since I washed me sheets. I told her she watches Oprah too much and then burped so she passed the phone off to my dad. She then sent me these articles (dust mites and another one to prove her point b/c everything on the internet is true). After I told this story several hundred times in the lunchroom to the fees at school and got the desired "sick, you are disgusting, you are never going to get married" reaction, I washed my sheets. Then, on Monday, two days after departing with my millions or billions of dust mite friends, I come down with a stomach infection. See Mom, those dust mites were keeping me healthy.

The two pictures to the left represent the remains of my humble abode. Soon and very soon, there will have to be a cleaning. The gummy bears will have to come down from the ceiling, the dust balls will be vacuumed, the posters on the walls taken down, the beer coasters boxed up, and the beer caps made into a badass lap.


I'll miss you classy apartment

An Unconvenient Truth?

POWER: GORE MANSION USES 20X AVERAGE HOUSEHOLD; CONSUMPTION INCREASE AFTER 'TRUTH'

Mon Feb 26 2007 17:16:14 ET The Tennessee Center for Policy Research, an independent, nonprofit and nonpartisan research organization committed to achieving a freer, more prosperous Tennessee through free market policy solutions, issued a press release late Monday:Last night, Al Gore’s global-warming documentary, An Inconvenient Truth, collected an Oscar for best documentary feature, but the Tennessee Center for Policy Research has found that Gore deserves a gold statue for hypocrisy. Gore’s mansion, [20-room, eight-bathroom] located in the posh Belle Meade area of Nashville, consumes more electricity every month than the average American household uses in an entire year, according to the Nashville Electric Service (NES). In his documentary, the former Vice President calls on Americans to conserve energy by reducing electricity consumption at home.The average household in America consumes 10,656 kilowatt-hours (kWh) per year, according to the Department of Energy. In 2006, Gore devoured nearly 221,000 kWh—more than 20 times the national average. Last August alone, Gore burned through 22,619 kWh—guzzling more than twice the electricity in one month than an average American family uses in an entire year. As a result of his energy consumption, Gore’s average monthly electric bill topped $1,359. Since the release of An Inconvenient Truth, Gore’s energy consumption has increased from an average of 16,200 kWh per month in 2005, to 18,400 kWh per month in 2006. Gore’s extravagant energy use does not stop at his electric bill. Natural gas bills for Gore’s mansion and guest house averaged $1,080 per month last year. “As the spokesman of choice for the global warming movement, Al Gore has to be willing to walk to walk, not just talk the talk, when it comes to home energy use,” said Tennessee Center for Policy Research President Drew Johnson.In total, Gore paid nearly $30,000 in combined electricity and natural gas bills for his Nashville estate in 2006.

For Further Information, Contact: Nicole Williams, (615) 383-6431 editor@tennesseepolicy.org

Dietrich Bonhoeffer

Bonhoeffer, who was hung by the SS for his outlandish idea that the Church and the Nazi state should be separate, has several thoughts that have stuck in my mind lately:

1. "cheap grace" - guarantees bargain-basement salvation which makes little, or no demands on people, thus poisoning "the life of following Christ"
2. "Who is Jesus in the world of 1933?" or more specifically, "Who is Jesus in 2007?"
3. In his dissertation The Communion of Saints, Bonhoeffer declares that the church is "Christ existing in community." The church for him is neither an ideal society with no need of reform, nor a gathering of the gifted elite. Rather, it is as much a communion of sinners capable of being true to the gospel, as it is a communion of saints for whom serving one another should be a joy.

Boogers

At school today, one of my colleagues sent me an article about doctors finding a way to grow fingers back. Wow, this is astounding. Now, I can go out, loose a finger on a table saw and then go to the doctor. The doctor will then put some pig bladder on my hand and my finger can grow back.

However, I've got a bigger money maker: a booger-no-moorer. All girls and metrosexual guys would buy this. I would not. I mean, where else would I get my midday snack?

Delicious.

Billary?

This is just hilarious. I love it how she puts her foot in her mouth. I think the thing the worries me the most is after she does it she says that we wanted her to do it. Am I Hillary's puppet master? Somebody wants that job.

obama, yo mama

so, the hottest guy in american politics, at least according to me even though i live overseas and only watch the communist news network (cnn international),is barak obama. i mean, the guy has the political clout to force hillary rodam clinton to announce her candidacy for president early. people are going nuts about this dude. he's black, good looking, well spoken, a professing christian, and in my opinion, too young. i did read his 'call to renewal' keynote address and thought he said some good things, for instance:

"Conservative leaders have been all too happy to exploit this gap, consistently reminding evangelical Christians that Democrats disrespect their values and dislike their Church, while suggesting to the rest of the country that religious Americans care only about issues like abortion and gay marriage; school prayer and intelligent design."

I would definately agree that your political opionions are based on your religion. I would also agree that there are other issues that Christians should be concerned about besides gay marriage and teaching evolution in schools. I'm sure Obama is referring the the far left of the Christian circle, or regular readers of Sojourners, who constantly remind Christians that Christ is against war and hates seeing poverty. However, where, or is there a line to be drawn here? Is Obama trying to give us a middle of the road candidate so we don't have to say I'm pro life so I HAVE to vote republican even though I hate Republican views on the poor? If he is, he's not succeeding because he is prochoice like the rest of his party and he is for more government control of society.

I know this doesn't make sense yet, because neither does the election or the world, but until then, I'll just keep musing liek a redneck.

Oh, and here are a couple of other things I pulled from his speach that i don't have time to muse about just yet.

"Now this is going to be difficult for some who believe in the inerrancy of the
Bible, as many evangelicals do. But in a pluralistic democracy, we have no
choice. Politics depends on our ability to persuade each other of common aims
based on a common reality. It involves the compromise, the art of what's
possible. At some fundamental level, religion does not allow for compromise.
It's the art of the impossible. If God has spoken, then followers are expected
to live up to God's edicts, regardless of the consequences.

To base one's life on such uncompromising commitments may be sublime, but to base our policy making on such commitments would be a dangerous thing. And if you doubt that, let me give you an example. We all know the story of Abraham and Isaac. Abraham is ordered by God to offer up his only son, and without argument, he takes Isaac to the mountaintop, binds him to an altar, and raises his knife, prepared to act as God has commanded.

Of course, in the end God sends down an angel to intercede at the very last minute, and Abraham passes God's test of devotion.

But it's fair to say that if any of us leaving this church saw Abraham on a roof of a building raising his knife, we would, at the very least, call the police and expect the Department of Children and Family Services to take Isaac away from Abraham. We would do so because we do not hear what Abraham hears, do not see what Abraham sees, true as those experiences may be. So the best we can do is act in accordance with those things that we all see, and that we all hear, be it common laws or basic reason. "

Interesting.

I can't see? Why i like chapel

i grew up in a christian environment in a fairly conservative area of memphis, tn. where most of the religious or moral dialog revolved around the issue of predestination: does God know before He creates us who will choose Him, or is it our decision or choice? i was well versed in Biblical narratives on the stories of the Bible to the point the Bible became academic. i was required to attend weekly chapels where we had "spiritual" emphasis weeks where we had a speaker who challenged us to think more about God. i enjoyed these weeks, even though through the repetition of songs like "holiness, holiness is what i long for, holiness is what i need" usually were rewritten in my mind to say "a new song, a new song is what i long for, a new song is what i need." and then, since the speaker was usually a baptist, we had several alter calls where students would go and say they had found God, cried a lot, and then told everyone how excited they were that they had found a new life that had meaning. this stuff bugged me, but like i said, i had no inherent problems with the week b/c it did challenge me everyday to come face to face with god, which is never a bad thing.
so, now i'm older and instead of being a student, i'm faculty. the songs have changed somewhat, but not a whole lot b/c everytime i see the holiness song on the screen, all i can think about is my high school version. i'm also at the point where some spiritual stuff starts to bug b/c i've seen the effects of emotionally driven spirituality. its not relationship based, but based on a feeling of a group mentality which makes me feel like religion is more of a group think mentality rather than a personal relationship.
bottom line, here's what i'm worried about: last week in the chapel that i announced and therefore in some sort of fashion supported, there was a time where students were asked to take off their stand up and take off their blindfolds to see who the Christians were around them. what does this convey to our students? yes, it does show them that there are more people on the same path in life as they are. there are other people out there who are christians and who like screaming "i love Jesus," but at the same time it brings pictures to my mind of a crusade-like mentality where "christians of the world should unite" to defeat, or convert the nonChristians. yes, Christians are called to spread their beliefs with others. yes, the Lord says to go in groups and encourages us not to go at it alone. Afterall, He had 12 friends with Him. But, at the same time, does He command us to go in groups and start claiming that some of us are His and others aren't? would He ask us to work with and pray for those who are sitting down?
i liked chapel b/c it caused me to think about my relationship with Christ. am i to meet others where they are and live out Christs's life that way, or am I to differentiate myself as a Christian and then see what happens?