Sunday, January 21, 2007

I can't see? Why i like chapel

i grew up in a christian environment in a fairly conservative area of memphis, tn. where most of the religious or moral dialog revolved around the issue of predestination: does God know before He creates us who will choose Him, or is it our decision or choice? i was well versed in Biblical narratives on the stories of the Bible to the point the Bible became academic. i was required to attend weekly chapels where we had "spiritual" emphasis weeks where we had a speaker who challenged us to think more about God. i enjoyed these weeks, even though through the repetition of songs like "holiness, holiness is what i long for, holiness is what i need" usually were rewritten in my mind to say "a new song, a new song is what i long for, a new song is what i need." and then, since the speaker was usually a baptist, we had several alter calls where students would go and say they had found God, cried a lot, and then told everyone how excited they were that they had found a new life that had meaning. this stuff bugged me, but like i said, i had no inherent problems with the week b/c it did challenge me everyday to come face to face with god, which is never a bad thing.
so, now i'm older and instead of being a student, i'm faculty. the songs have changed somewhat, but not a whole lot b/c everytime i see the holiness song on the screen, all i can think about is my high school version. i'm also at the point where some spiritual stuff starts to bug b/c i've seen the effects of emotionally driven spirituality. its not relationship based, but based on a feeling of a group mentality which makes me feel like religion is more of a group think mentality rather than a personal relationship.
bottom line, here's what i'm worried about: last week in the chapel that i announced and therefore in some sort of fashion supported, there was a time where students were asked to take off their stand up and take off their blindfolds to see who the Christians were around them. what does this convey to our students? yes, it does show them that there are more people on the same path in life as they are. there are other people out there who are christians and who like screaming "i love Jesus," but at the same time it brings pictures to my mind of a crusade-like mentality where "christians of the world should unite" to defeat, or convert the nonChristians. yes, Christians are called to spread their beliefs with others. yes, the Lord says to go in groups and encourages us not to go at it alone. Afterall, He had 12 friends with Him. But, at the same time, does He command us to go in groups and start claiming that some of us are His and others aren't? would He ask us to work with and pray for those who are sitting down?
i liked chapel b/c it caused me to think about my relationship with Christ. am i to meet others where they are and live out Christs's life that way, or am I to differentiate myself as a Christian and then see what happens?

No comments: